Megan

Transformation

I have bought myself a beautiful handmade, silk and satin, glittery, white-sparkly dress; covered in sequins, it glows in the night as I twirl and dance in the milky blue shades sent down by the wizened old man in the moon, who fell in love with my golden hair which flows in the wind like a gentle river; the wind, filled with fairies laying little roses, sprinkles fragrance about the snow filled garden glittering under a falling star’s radiance and glow; the shooting star, giving off a vibrant red glow, casts its magnificence upon my shimmering dress, turning it crimson; dressing the snowy field in a red satin sheet, it reveals a horrible creature dancing just as I am, in a black silk and satin dress to match my own, her hair the color of fire, glowing in an unearthly light while money falls from the sky, cluttering around her feet like dark beady-eyed rats nipping at her, she takes little notice of them as she twirls and dances; the wrinkled, wizened old man in the moon laughs hysterically at this double image of beauty and glory; blood, brought about by a terrific, gory, silent and gut-wrenching battle, sets a new scene to the dancing for bodies fill the garden as my dress slowly fades from white to gray to pure onyx and my hair takes on a light of its own as my inner fire burns and melts the purity of my soul; my eyes, with a sad, distant look, gaze about the scene where my lust for power has taken me.

Blah, I really don't feel like going to work. It's not bad, it's just that I'd rather be doing other things. It kinda sucks, I have to work for the next two weeks like straight. I get saturday off and monday (but that's because it's a holiday) but I have to work the rest of the time. I do get off the 31st and 1st! I get to have a proper New Year's Eve for once, instead of selling alcohol all day to people who think it sucks to work on a holiday...*shrug* weird people.

I figured out what my spots were. Nothing deadly, like my family was thinking. Apparently I have a rare form of rosea(sp?). Instead of having a rash on my face, I get it elsewhere on my body. They don't really know what causes it but it could be viral(sp?) and is linked to the chicken pox and fever blisters. From what the doctor was telling me, I've had this before. But it was on my legs and it cleared up a lot faster because I was getting sunlight on my legs. Sunlight is the only thing that can clear it up. Really annoying since it's the winter. I have to go find a tanning bed to lay in for a few minutes. lol! I don't know why my body hates me so. *shrug*

I'm so bored at home...there's nothing to do. Well, there are things to do, like write on here and play WOW. But WOW wasn't really working for me last night, not until like 11, and I went to bed at that time because I have to be up for work. Work requires a lot of energy. lol! So I started to unpack boxes. I wanted to do my puzzle (which should take a grand total of like three days or something) but I can't find it! I think I know what box it's in, but I don't feel like moving the box on top of it to get to it.

Oh! and Happy Belated B-Day Emily! I left you a message on your cell phone but I don't know if you got it. ^-^

So yeah...more activity? anyone?

So I made it home. yay...It feels so strange being back here. Pumpkin is like staring at me but acting like he isn't...silly kitty.

Keith Urban - Stupid boy

well she was precious
like a flower
she grew wild
wild but innocent
perfect prayer in a desperate hour
she was everything beautiful and different

stupid boy
you can't fence that in
stupid boy
it's like holding back the wind

she let her heart and soul right in your hands
and you stole her every dream
and you crushed her plans
she never even knew she had a choice
and that's what happens when the only voice he hears
is telling her she cant
stupid boy
stupid boy

so what made you think that yo ucould take a life
and just push it, push it around
i guess you built yourself up so high
you had to take her and break her down

she let her heart and soul right in your hands
and you stole her every dream
and you crushed her plans
she never even knew she had a choice
and that's what happens when the only voice he hears
is telling her she cant
and you stupid boy

oh you always had to be right
and now you've lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive

she let her heart and soul right in your hands
and you stole her every dream
and you crushed her plans, oh yes he did
she never even knew she had a choice
and that's what happens when the only voice he hears
is telling her she cares

it took a while for her to figure out
she could run
but when she did
she was long gone, long gone

she loved me, she loved me
god please just let her know im sorry
im sorry, im sorry, im sorry baby
im down on my knees
she's never coming back to me

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where was this song when I needed it?

I'm tired of working on my paper! I've written three pages in an hour and a half...which I think is alot but I'm not sure. The paper has to be like seven pages long so I've got four more pages to go. ^-^ Yay! That's good. I'm not sure if I can talk for four more pages, maybe a page and a half more...that would make it...four and a half pages... I need to expound more on certain things and edit it a bit. Then it'll be on to the next paper. That one is going to be like pulling teeth....so not looking forward to that one. To bad it's a big part of my grade. Alas..I shall make a B in Japanese history... but an A in BCIS! lol! That class was way to easy. And I think you can't get on WOW in the library. I've tried and it won't let me connect. *shrug* Maybe theey have that kind of stuff blocked...but I don't see why considering I'm just using their internet and not their computers...it has to be more to it.. I'm to lazy to figure it out. And I suppose I should be working and not playing. Although, now I can play and talk freely about it! >:) *rolls eyes* Back to the social order of pirates...

I'm so bored. I'm trying to work on my paper but it isn't working out to well. I did get my other homework finished for monday. I think I was supposed to know something for German but I'm not sure what she was talking about. I can look it over tomorrow or monday before class or something. I'm almost finished reading through my research for my Pirates paper...it's not going to so well though. I'm supposed to have an argument but so far everyone keeps agreeing with each other, except on the Spanish. Some barely mention them and others expound(??) on how they were the main victims and what not. I think I'm going to try and play that up and hope for the best. *sigh*

I feel so blah...

Today has been really good for some reason. I went to work this morning at 8AM, forgot my badge and wasted like 30 minutes trying to get a replacement or at least get the "Ann" badge (when you forget your badge you get a generic badge that says "Ann" on it so the customers have something to call you, also we have no "Ann"s so they'll know it's you if you mess up), I was on a register for like 30 minutes when I was told to go out to the floor and put stuff up. I was there until about an hour to my shift end. It was great! The time went by so fast! The girl I was working with even wrote my out a "Great Team Member" card for the board! I was like "awe!" lol! Now I'm working on my German homework. I got my Japanese history finished ^-^. I'm making stuff up. We're doing past participles (what the hell that is I still don't know) and we have the past participle form of the verb and we need to find the root verb, some of these things aren't on the list of past participle verbs, so I'm going through the glossary looking up words that resemble what the root word might be. *shrug*

I was so tired last night! I got off work at like 9 and I was supposed to go by JCs..and I did, but no one was there. My phone was dead and he had wondered off...again..lol! ;) Anyways...so I came back to my apartment, plugged in my phone and fell asleep, only to be half awoken at like midnight. I think I had a conversation of some sort but the only part I remember was JC: "are you sleeping" Me: "I don't know..." Why I didn't know if I was sleeping or not is beyond me...I mean, shouldn't you know you're sleeping. I find it funny. Megan as we know her wasn't obviously home at that time. lol!

So.....Peace all! *muah*

EDIT: (god I can't type today! I kept putting "WSDT"...)

Ich liebe mein Drache. Der Drache aufstehen und isst die Leute.

That should read "I love my dragon. The dragon stands up and eats the people."

(I tried to find "burn" but it doesn't have a direct translation (and I just tried to write "transplant"...there's something wrong with me!))

I used a past participle!!! Aufstehen! ^-^

I dunno, I felt like posting something. Since like no one has posted in days...it's kinda depressing.

I played laser tag and pool last night! Laser tag was so much fun! I got second on the team and fourth overall. Pretty good for a girl, no? lol! ^_~ As for pool....I had my moments of greatness. Like when I shot the wrong ball into the pocket. lol! I am the master! ^-^ Then we went back to Chris' to play Mario Party where JC again stole my stars...:( I don't know why I even play sometimes...especially with a star stealer! ^_~ Kidding!!!! It was all Andrew's fault. Him and those "miracle" spots. The only "miracle" was that we didn't all jump him. lol! But it was a lot of fun. And now I must go to bed. I think I'm overally tired. My hands are shaking. It's an odd feeling trying to type while your hands are shaking, you don't always hit the right buttons and your fingers seem to go faster. It's crazy.

Laters!

So I finally made it home!! The drive was crazy last night! Considering we left like late because JC hadn't packed and forgot to pay rent, and I was trying to complete a quest on World of Warcraft (not D&D..oops ), we left at around 3 instead of 1ish...well, we get almost to Fort Worth and his uncle calls and says there is this huge wreck in Waco and to try and find a way around it. I call my mom and tell her and so she goes to find a way around Waco. I call her back as we're getting closer and get directions. Well, as we closed in on Waco I turned on the radio to see what traffic would be like and got a report about the wreck. Apparently a semi going northbound jumped the concrete median into the southbound lanes ramming into two other semis going south. This of course caused a huge accident and one of the semis erupted in flames. This whole thing had the entire southbound lanes of Waco shut down. We had to go around Waco and I swear, we went 2 miles in 2 hours. Traffic was that bad! It took us 2 and a half hours to get through Waco. It was horrible!!!

One more day and I'll be at home!!! I just have to come up with a really good excuse to skip work...I think I might use the family emergency excuse. It's always plusible. What are they going to do? Fire me? I'm quitting next week..or the week after..or something like that. I only work two days a week anyways..so I don't see what difference it makes.

Anyways....!!!! I'm coming home! I haven't been home since like July..that's...*counts months*...only like 3 months, but still. I've never been away and not seen anyone from the hometown for that long. I have a few misgivings about coming down, but I think they'll be okay. ^-^ I can't wait to see everyone!!!

One of these days these people are going to get in trouble. I just hope I'm not here because I'll get in trouble too. I was like three minutes short of being woken up from my nap by my alarm when the fire alarm in our apartment starts going off. That dumbass that Sarah dates was cooking on the balcony again with the door open. So all the smoke went inside the apartment instead of outside. Now I'm a very unhappy, groggy Megan...I swear some people lack the gene to common sense. I mean, I have little common sense but I have more sense then they seem to have combined. What inconsiderate dumbasses!

EDIT: (6:01 pm) Why does everything have to go from annoying to totally fucked up! I may not be making my trip to England. Apparently my application was due to Study Abroad yesturday, and I'm missing a vital piece of it because my advisor didn't have an open slot until next week, on the day the application is due to Hull. The Courtyards is jacked up as ever. I still have to pay the full amount even though I'm going to be gone in like a week of the month starting. I swear this apartment complex is the most fucked up thing ever! Don't ever live here! Also, if I don't get to go it's going to be hell trying to get classes for next semester! This is offically a bad day. I don't have many of them, but this is one of them.

German has officially gotten hard. I think they left out a few instructions in the homework....like what we're supposed to do! I'm just filling stuff in and hoping it's right. I doubt it but I can correct it in class tomorrow. She gave us so much homework!

Anyways...on to another subject!

I'm going to go home the weekend of Nov. 4! I'll be there sometime in the morning. Unfortuneately no one is going to be in town that I know of, besides Emily. Yay for Emily! She's the only one cool enough to stay in town! And it's picnic weekend too, so you would think everyone would be in town..but no..Dang Aggie football game. I guess I'll have to find something for JC and I to do...considering there is like nothing to do in Granger...Emily?

Grrrrrrrrr.........why the hell do they assign homework over something that hasn't been discussed? How much sense does that make!!! Stupid german...That guy that walked out of class last week has our teacher all flustered and she assigned some homework that I can only guess at what we're supposed to do. I get that I'm supposed to put these words in the sentances but..contractions? What contractions? Those words don't contract! *headache* I don't get it....

I updated my browser to the new Explorer 7 and everything looks all messed up....like facebook is all shifted around and my livejournal kitty is cut in half....and what's bad is it isn't the screen size...I've tried changing font sizes and stuff and that didn't help. I don't like the new explorer but I don't know how to get 6 back...

It was so funny, I was looking around on WebCT and I looked at my little grade icon for one of my classes and usually it doesn't have anything on it but the one for my history class turned into a little "A". It's cute! lol! ^-^ I guess I know what I'm making in history. *rolls eyes* ^_~

I've just gotten finished with an evil assignment for Archaeology. We always have to read these articles and answer questions over them. This one had to be the hardest. It was this article that was nothing but dialog between the "Real Mesoamerican Archaeologist", his "Skeptical Grad Student", and the author. Really not worthing reading. But the questions. OMG! We had to decide from that random dialog which sampling techniques each of them used, why, and which we thought was better. Yeah...that wasn't insane or anything. I think that I might get some points for doing the work but I don't think I'll get much more than that, unless by some grace she takes mercy on us. *shrug* Now on to reading for history! ^-^

I am so freakin sick it's not even funny. Like, I'm a bit better now but my throat hurts like hell and I'm kinda out of it. I blame it all on my umbrella which decided to self destruct in the most torrential of rainstorms. The wire arm things let go of the fabric and went all funky directions and the fabric was hanging on my like one little wire arm so I had to run all the way to the union in the pouring rain and flipflops to get a hoodie (mine is down south) and a new umbrella. I was soaked completely through, which isn't good as I've found out. I started to dry off but I was so cold. In class I would shiver and then I would get so hot and it felt like my face was on fire. By 3 I was getting a bit dillusional. I fell asleep in class. We had a ten minute break and I woke up to being poked like 45 minutes later. The teacher accussed me of coming to class with a hangover!!! I was like "I don't have a hangover sir, it's Tuesday, who drinks on Mondays?" He didn't really believe me. I made it home, thank god, by talking to my mom. I was so disoriented I'm surprised I could drive. As soon as I got home I put on some PJ bottoms and added an extra comforter to the bed and sacked out. That was one of the craziest experiences. My imagination went into over drive and I was seeing and talking to things. I wasn't actually sleeping, I was moving around and trying to reach for things and holding random conversations. I woke up when my alarm went off at 6:30 and I stripped down to a tshirt and shorts and went back to sleep where the same thing insued again. It was enough to crawl into bed. I was so weak. I woke up a second time and took a shower. I almost fell out of the shower. That wasn't cool. I was so hot..I went from a cold shower to a hot one and then I was sweating when I got out of the shower and was just sitting here. Then I got really cold again. I was walking around in a hoodie. I finally went to bed again about 11, and tossed and turned and had more strange dreams where I wasn't asleep but I wasn't awake. I swear, I must have been running some kind of fever to be so dillusional. When I get sick I sack out and wake up hours later feeling better. That did not exactly happen. I'm still suffering the after effects this morning. I'm cold, but I'm hot. My throat hurts, my head hurts, and! oh the best part was I had to have music up seriously loud last night because if it got quiet my ears would start to hum and it felt like my head was pushing in on itself. That is a most uncomfortable feeling.

Surprisingly I did get all of my homework done last night. For a few hours I had a clear enough head to do work. Now I just need to finish the rest of it. I'm skipping class this morning because I don't think I can drive, but I'm going to have to go to German. And lab. Maybe lab. I dunno.

So I played my first game of Dungeons and Dragons last night! That was so much fun but no one wants to believe me. lol! My character is a mercenary half-elf fighter who wields a guisarme, very effective. lol! I chopped another fighter to pieces and piked a bard. I was just a tad bit blood thirsty, took out a rogue as well. The party won, amazingly, I thought we were doomed for awhile. There was a wizard or sorceror or something hiding in the water and our two wizards were unconcious for the majority of the battle. Then we all played Mario Party, where JC insistently battled me for stars, and won. For once I actually had stars and I lost them all in battle. *tear* lol! But it was so much fun!

But now I must find something to eat and get dressed and do something for an hour...